Tuesday, May 18, 2010

And I've only been barefoot for a month

You know it's time for a pedicure when you step on a tack and don't even bleed because the barb didn't even make it through a callous.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

He is still good, even though I am scared

Dear friends,

I am trying to recruit a prayer army. My mother needs it.

For those of you who didn't know, Mom was diagnosed with non-Hodgkins lymphoma 18 years ago. After only a couple of chemo treatments, she found out she was pregnant. The doctors said chemo and pregnancy could not occur at the same time so she started the much milder treatment. The cancer disappeared. And Asa was born in July 1992, perfectly normal.... although sometimes I wonder if a chemo treatment did make it to his brain.

In March, we learned that it was back. My mom had a 4 cm tumor pressing against her gallbladder and her lymph nodes were swollen many times beyond their normal size. The doctors started her on a mild, no side effects treatment, hoping that it would work. Her back pain disappeared and we were very hopeful.

Her catscan was yesterday. Her lymph nodes have gone back to normal size, praise the Lord. The tumor, however, has gone from 4 cm to 7cm. The doctor voiced the fear that it might be large-cell, which means aggressive and fast growing. A needle biopsy is scheduled for Monday (Why Monday? Why use words like aggressive and fast growing then delay the test for four days?), with results by Tuesday. If it is what they think it is, chemo will be started. It will probably last for six months. Which means my mother could very well be sick all summer long. And lose her hair. Which is probably one of the most humbling aspects of cancer, especially for girls.

Please pray. Pray not only for healing, but for quiet hearts on our part. That we will draw our strength from God and not from those around us. That we will point to Him with our words and actions.

And after those holy words, I'll confess my selfishness. Pray for me, that I will accept whatever this will change regarding wedding plans. I have been trying not to obsess over what I want... but with the possibility of major changes looming, I find myself clutching onto my desires. It's so stupid.

Thank you so much for the notes and prayers you have already sent our way. They are encouraging to her. And though God already knows how this will play out, we have to pray, see, because He commanded us to. So get on it.

P.S. And don't tell me you've been praying when you haven't.
P.P.S. I love y'all.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

out of control registering

But Jim, we NEED a pineapple slicer.

And an avocado peeler.

And a mini grater that would be perfect for a Barbie.

And Irish coffee mugs. Do they come in pints?

Monday, May 10, 2010

I will never allow my countrymen to go into these schools

At the dinner table:

Dad: What is George Wallace famous for?
Ryan: Oh. Wait.